I have been having trouble with some of
the posts I have seen on Facebook pushing bigotry as religious
freedom.
I felt compelled to write about it, but
have not been able to resolve in my mind just how to address the
issues.
Then I remembered a Bible verse:
The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector - Luke 18,9-14
with that in mind I began to write.
Jesus came to them today and told them this story
Then I remembered a Bible verse:
The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector - Luke 18,9-14
with that in mind I began to write.
Jesus came to them today and told them this story
Two people went to Church to pray.
One was a celebrated government
official, who was trying to force everyone to follow their own
limited interpretation of the Bible.
The other was a law abiding and
loving gay person who just wanted equal rights for everyone.
The official stood in front of a
crowd and prayed aloud for all to see and hear: ‘I thank you, God,
that I am not a sinner like everyone else. For I don’t allow these
people, who don't believe what I am comfortable with, to have
anything I don't think they deserve. I don’t sin, as I see it, and
I don’t commit adultery, as I have been married to all my spouses
at the time. I’m certainly not evil like that gay person over
there! Imagine if they are allowed to be married, I know you would
hate that as much as I do. I thank you that you hear MY prayers.
Thank you for making me straight.’
But the gay person stood at a
distance away from others and dared not even lift his eyes to heaven
as he prayed. Instead, he beat his chest in sorrow, saying, ‘O God,
be merciful to me, for I know I am not worthy of your love. Yet I
also know you love me. I thank you for the love you have brought into
my life. This companion you have given to me has saved me from a life
of desperation and possible suicide. This companion you sent to me
showed me that you are love, and that I am loved by you. I only ask
that I will someday be allowed to have the same rights as everyone
else, and marry this loving person you sent to save me.'
I tell you, this humble gay person, not the government official, returned home justified before God. For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.
This is what came to me to write. I was unsure of myself at this point, so I sent it to my brother Rodney. I asked him if I had overstepped, or gone too far.
I tell you, this humble gay person, not the government official, returned home justified before God. For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.
This is what came to me to write. I was unsure of myself at this point, so I sent it to my brother Rodney. I asked him if I had overstepped, or gone too far.
His response is the most profound thing
I have read in a long time.
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He said...
I want you to know how wonderful
you are to me. Because nothing you have ever done or said has treated
me as other. You have only and always treated me as same, as part, as
included, as loved. Not ever a blip of anything else from the very
beginning. And you, DuWayne, and Dad are the only ones. Every one
else needed time to adjust but came around to a growing level of
acceptance. Not you. Not one millisecond. That's amazing!
Again,
thank you. I have been texting a college friend who is upset with the
cruel "bullying" that is being directed at Kim Davis. She
is angry at me because of a meme I posted about the checkout cashier.
I couldn't sleep last night trying to think of reply. I'm wondering
if it's worth it. Your parable is just what I needed to hear.
Cruel and bullying. I don't see it.
That meme was ironic sarcasm that makes a point about a current issue
without resorting to making it an accusation against an entire group
of people as does your very hurtful use of "the gay agenda."
You are asking me to answer for a
population of people lumped together by a single characteristic. The
moment I realized I was gay, I was in terror that I would no longer
be seen as Rod, but would now forever be this first. That I would be
defined by a single fact about me, the fact that I am gay. Do you
understand that I lost friends over this? That it did happen? That
people I thought would be my friends till I died became polite
acquaintances? But nearly 40 years in I have friends for whom that is
not a consideration and have developed a thick enough skin to accept
those who cannot see past it. But it hurts, and I mean HURTS that you
did this. When you use "gay agenda" you did this. You made
me your "gay" friend. When you take the individual actions
of an individual in a class of people and speak of the class as such, you
did this. And you did it to me.
I cannot believe that you compare that
meme with bullying. Do you understand at all what happens everyday in
this country and around the world? I would be so happy to go a week
without seeing in the news that a disaster, an economic downturn, a
plague, was because of gay people. But it happens, every time there
is a shooting, a hurricane, a heavy fire season. Have you ever heard
one of these things in the news and thought, "Wow, that is
horrible. I wonder if Rod heard that? I wonder how it must make him
feel?"
I would love to go a month without
someone in the news saying that gays should be arrested and locked
up, arrested and quarantined, or worse, not even arrested. I don't go
a month without a fellow citizen calling for gays to simply be shot,
hanged, set on fire, just for being gay.
These things happen every day, but I
have never, ever lumped you or anyone else opposed to gay rights or
gay marriage into a group and judged you by the actions of the
Westboro Baptist church of "God hates fags" fame.
Do you realize that every political
season that I, a political junkie, have had to listen to politician
and commentators and others in public life support anti gay causes to
win the votes of people who want me dead. Right now they are calling
for constitutional amendments that would dissolve my marriage to Doug.
Do you even understand what it's like that until June 13, 2015 I was
afraid to visit my sister because If anything happened to me or Doug
in Alabama the other one could be shut out of the hospital or funeral
parlor because we were strangers in the eyes of the Alabama State law. I'm not a
healthy 53, and I had to think about that. Every place I went, I had
to think about that.
Do you even understand that I had to
pay taxes on the health benefits that Doug received from my work?
Because the Feds did not recognize our marriage, those benefits were
considered extra income. Did you know that we had to do our taxes
twice every year b/c the Feds did not recognize our marriage, but
state did? Since the CA taxes based on Fed we had to do two a single
for them, and then pay for a "mock" federal tax as married
to do our state taxes.
DO YOU KNOW THAT GAY CHILDREN ARE
DYING? Besides teaching math, I work with at-risk children. Do you
understand that of those students, gays are particularly vulnerable?
Did you know that if you are a black child who is treated badly
because he is black he can go home and has family that can both
sympathize and understand his or her pain? Not gay children. They go
home to fear that their families might treat them as badly or worse.
Do you know that they represent more than 40% of the homeless teens?
Do you know that they are at higher risk of physical violence? They
are still at much higher risk depression and suicide. Did you know
studies have found this has nothing to do with a child being gay, but
is greatly influenced by how the child perceives and/or experiences
societies attitudes and action towards them as a sexual minority?
Did you know a good young man in my new
Christian Class set himself on fire 4 or 5 days after confiding with
me that he was in love with his best friend and didn't know if God could
love him? Did you know that I had another student who was being beaten up
everyday after school by his best friend... his best friend from
elementary school. His friend planned to beat him up until he wasn't
gay. Did you know that I worked with another student whose parents took all of her clothes
locked her in her room everyday, giving her 1 outfit for school-one
of their choosing-keeping her under house arrest because they found
out she was gay. Did you know the school yearbook adviser at my high
school tried to keep a class sweetheart couple out of the yearbook
b/c they were girls. She went so far as contacting the parents of the
couple and outing them. But it was to late. One girl's parents had
already forced her out of the house; the other already knew and
threatened a lawsuit if his daughter was treated any differently than
anyone else. He nearly sued over the pain the adviser had already
caused. Did you know this adviser came to me nearly in tears, because
she only wanted to protect the girls. Did you know that despite the
pain this adult had caused children, I understood, comforted her, and
helped the girls forgive her.
Do you realize that Kim Davis' beliefs
do not trouble me, her actions if she accepts the consequences of
treating people differently do not bother me. Wanting to protect
her from having to give a gay couple a wedding license does not bother me.
But the rallying of politician and conservatives clamoring around her
on the news, talking about evil gay people bullying her disgusts me.
Saying she should get to treat people differently saddens me, hurts
me. But far worse, this grandstanding gives them the chance to say to
another child that you are different and someone else has a right to
not serve you because you are different, and that puts another cut on
the child's soul. The rallying of politicians and conservatives
clamoring around her on the news talking about evil gay people
bullying her disgusts me because it validates this discrimination the
eyes of that child.
You asked about an accommodation for
Ms. Davis, that another clerk could issue the license. Did you even
look at the story closely enough to know that SHE REFUSED TO LET HER
CLERKS DO THAT? 5 of her 6 clerks were willing to issue the
certificates, but she won't let them. Did you know that yesterday her
lawyers filed for a lifting of the injunction because the people who
needed the marriage licenses got them while she was in jail? So now
that their case is over, she wants to go back to not issuing licenses
AND NOT LETTING ANYONE IN HER OFFICE ISSUE THEM. Do you understand
that I can and do respect her sincerity of beliefs, that am more
impressed with her willingness to be jailed for them. But I also do
not accept that my government allow any of its citizens to be treated
differently by a representative of that government and that I will
speak out against it?
It has been a long standing principle
in our democracy that in the public square you may not discriminate.
That even private businesses open to the public must provide their
goods and services to anyone who has a legal right to them. Do you
understand that I accept completely that someone can act according to
her beliefs up to and until those actions put a burden, however slight
or inconsequential, on someone else. At that point it has and always
should be illegal. As Lincoln so brilliantly put it, "Your right
to swing your fist stops at the end of my nose" It is morally
reprehensible to me that I be treated differently by persons because
I am gay. But if I am not doing business with them, they may act
freely on their beliefs. But if I need service, I do not need to be
reminded of friends I have lost because I am gay. I do not need to be
polite as she goes and gets some who is willing to do business with a
gay person. I do not care if she loves me, I do not care if she is
praying for my lost soul. I want to be able to walk up to the counter
get what I came for and go about my business. Anything else opens a
painful scar that tears at my person.
The rallying of politicians and
conservatives clamoring around her on the news talking about evil gay
people bullying her disgusts me. I cannot accommodate that. It takes
the pain inflicted by her on people she refused to serve and says to
a child that it is right. If you're gay then people should get to treat
you differently because of that.
You call a meme bullying? Do you know
that a teacher at Bell accused me of having pornography in my
classroom because I had a dropout and suicide prevention support
group for lgbtq teens. She told her classes that my group was "the
most evil" thing on campus. She showed them a video of herself
on Montel saying how gays are out recruiting children to be gay and
now because of groups like mine we the sexual predictors were
actually on campus. Did you know I found out because some of my
students were in her class. They came to our lunch group hurt and
angry. Did you know she actually published my name in a conservative
magazine article titled "Running the liberal gauntlet"
saying I was a homosexual militant who was torturing my students with
my radical agenda? She put me through all this when I had never
really spoken to her prior to this, and was talking about how she had
been persecuted by me.
Do you know that I took calls for the
next couple of years from friends who wanted to know what was
happening. Did you know my mom called very concerned and I had to
explain to her what happened. That the persecution the other teacher
referred to was that she got in trouble for talking to her typing
class about controversial topic without parent parent consent, that
she showed a non-approved video to her classes which also had nothing
to do with her curriculum and upset many of her students. This was
what caused her to list me as such in a very public forum.
So no my friend, with what I and so
many of my students have experienced, I do not believe the meme I
posted was bullying. To me it is publicly adding my voice to the
conversation. It is me saying to my students that while
discrimination still exists, and while people will class you as
someone who others should be allowed to treat as different or other,
IT WILL NOT GO UNCHALLENGED! I will say as loudly as I can, so that
child can hear it, that it is wrong. I will say the system works when
it didn't before, because she was not allowed to do it.
And we are nowhere near the end. Do
you at least know that in more than 30 states it is legal for your
employer to fire you because you are gay? Did you know people have
been fired, lost there jobs, because their bosses found out they were
gay because of a wedding announcement?
I have to stop now. Writing this has hurt.
I am not going to proofread it. There is so much more to say. How
painful it was that Doug's brother would not speak to me or
acknowledge my presence. How he would leave church if I went to
church with Doug. How I cried because I just wanted to go to church
with Doug, not cause a problem for someone else at church. And to
have to see how it hurt Doug to learn how his brother would treat him
if they were not brothers.
Or, how I once went to visit a good
friend, a good friend that I wanted to meet the first person I had ever really
fallen in love with. That the person I was dating did not want to go
into the house of my christian friend because he would not be welcome so
he stayed in the car. We were in the neighborhood and I just wanted
to stop by and say hi. Even after I said that would not be the case,
that he would be welcomed, he said I was wrong. And when I went up to
the friends apartment to say how silly he was being, you said no. You
did not want to meet him because you said it would upset your
children. So I said, "Oh, okay. I understand." And I left,
without you meeting him. I left and had to tell him he was right. And
I had to accept that if I was the person you hadn't met you would not
want to see me either.
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So yeah. My brother Rodney has been through a lot. More than I ever imagined.
Anyone who says Jesus hates him... doesn't know him, or Jesus, or speak for Jesus.
Anyone who says Jesus hates him... doesn't know him, or Jesus, or speak for Jesus.
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